TIRED

Tired

I am tired

tired of waiting

tired of saying please

only to hear no or a

monsoon of excuses

I am tired

tired of polite

tired of clean and crisp

tired of playing nice

and sitting still with

legs crossed at the knees

I am tired

tired of wearing this

circumstance like a mask

tired of wearing the ghost

of someone else’s mistakes

tired of wearing fear

like too much lipstick

I am tired

tired of rules and regulations

tired of barbed questions

tired of empty promises and

closed mouth kisses

I am tired

tired of hoping

that this isnt a lie

that this isnt a false image

that this is grey instead

of red, a spark instead

of a fire.

I am tired

I want to be free

I want to be flawed

I want to be dirty

I want to be wild and selfish

I am tired

of waiting.

JANEisnotplain 07.04.2013