SURPRISE

surprise


i wasn’t always looking, you know
i didn’t always know the way
your hands would feel holding mine
i wasn’t always searching for your lips
i cant justify how i managed to find
what i didn’t even think could be real
i don’t know how i knew that
it is your fingertips i need
like destiny against my skin
but even if i wasn’t looking,
and i know i wasn’t
i’m glad i found you

© JANE’06

DREAMED

dreamed

i search for you in auburn fields of fall
where paper dolls spin under red umbrellas and their
tafetta skirts made of sun rays dance across orange sky

the road there is long and weary
made of white houses that burst
so bright they are blinding and
they shoot into my retina and
for a moment i am blind from the inside out
seeing only the white future of winters
left crumbling on old sidewalks

i want to stop surviving
so that i can begin living
perhaps life is like a red carpet
that never stops unfolding and
i only know the frayed threads of
its worn edges

what it must be like to be
so far away from the end
to hold and to be held
by the fragrant winds of some
to be alive

you will still be around
when august falls

won't you?

copyright JANE 2/06

RANDOMN BURNING MAN THOUGHT #5

RANDOMN BURNING MAN THOUGHT #5

IF: bravery is doing that which frightens you
AND: you do not fear death
THEN:there is nothing brave about dying

copyright JANE 8/05

DOCTOR

doctor

doctor
i'm so sick
can't you help me?
i don't care how
just kill it, please
you've been
sitting behind that
glass for so long
looking in my eyes
taking notes
sacrifice me
i don't care

your dynamic touch
is a small price to
pay to end these
incessant dreams
that worm their way
spreading deeper
and deeper until
i can appreciate
their collective pulse

and anymore
i feel so sick
doctor
just fix it
cure me
change it
make me as
sterile as your
white lab coat

there's something
wrong here, doctor
it's been too long
and they won't take me
broken like
this, doctor
fix me

please

copyright JANE'06